It was about a year and a half ago I think. She was having another one of her N fits, and we were in the kitchen. For my whole life she's threatened me with violence (threats to stab me or end my life and the good old "I'll beat your assss" shit.)
Her threats were already on the rise recently and especially that week. Pretty sure she'd already said she'd stab me that week and during her fit she was acting unstable as usual.
I was already drawn into her fit and was arguing with her and basically said she was acting like a bitch and I was done. She went to storm out, and I opened the refrigerator.
That's where she goes bat shit crazy.
She claimed I tried to "hit" her with the fridges door. A door that was no where near her and attached to a heavy ass machine. It was just more gaslighting because just seconds before she kept saying how she was going to do something. So she claimed I tried to hit her with the fridge door, and this crazy bitch lunges at me, slams the fridge door shut and throws me against the sink.
And tries to put her hands on my neck. Her first mistake was laying her hands on me at all, but her second mistake was trying to choke me out. Because I was bullied in school and one bully always tried to do that. AND a guy that raped and nearly killed me did the same shit. So when people go for my throat I go into survival mode, pretty much.
I grabbed her arms and got them off me and held her away from me, but she kept trying to come at me. So I threw her against the counter and when she came at me again I threw her ass to the ground and walked out.
She started crying because she was on the ground and later on was all "look at these bruises you gave me!"
So I told her "You're lucky I didn't kill you in self defense. Next time I might since it's obvious you're violent."
I think the only reason I didn't go to the police is because I didn't think they'd believe me.
Weeks and months after I kept having nightmares where it would happen again or she'd try to knife me, and in one dream I had to kill her to stop her and it was just so violent.
She never forgot that I physically defended myself and that I am not the little girl she used to whip with a leather belt and belt buckle. She hasn't made threats against my safety or life since then.
Submitted March 16, 2016 at 03:46PM by radioactivemelanin http://ift.tt/1nNIz5j raisedbynarcissists
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