Throwaway because I try to keep my normal account positive and this is whiny at best.
A friend from grad school and I decided we both want to drop some of the pounds we gained since we started (and for me, the rest of the extra pounds I've been carrying all my life). We made a plan to work out together 3x/wk - her on the treadmill and me on the elliptical or a stationary bike, mixed in with some weights and swimming - plus track calories, eat lunch together, and do weigh-ins every weekend.
It seemed like a perfect plan! She is very positive and supportive, has never judged me for my weight, and I feel comfortable talking to her about my struggles. It made me really happy that she wanted to do this with me. We both even have the same goal weight!
The only difference is that where I started around 245 pounds, she started around 165 (and she is 5'10). That means where I need to lose 100 pounds, she only has to lose 30.
We started two weeks ago and as you can see from the title of the post, I'm already down 8 pounds. Some might be water weight and the fact that I was really gung-ho the first two days and barely ate anything. Regardless, I'm ecstatic.
But at the same time, in the first two weeks, she already lost 5 pounds. That means she only has 25 more to go - she could be done in 10 weeks! And that makes me so jealous.
When she talks about how hard this is, I struggle to not roll my eyes. I can't help but think she doesn't have any room to complain. Most of what she has been doing has been cutting out extra snacks, whereas I've had to reorganize my entire eating habits. She also breezes through our workouts because she already worked out before we started whereas I walked back and forth from the couch to the refrigerator.
Plus, she's already a healthy weight for her height! Even if she fails at this, she won't face any of the judgment or shame I face now. I know that sounds really terrible, but it's how I feel.
Should I tell her I want to go this alone? I have a really supportive boyfriend who I'm sure would count calories with me, etc. And she would probably be fine because before we started working out together, she exercised with her husband instead. Should I tell her I want to part ways?
Any advice?
Tl;Dr: My great, supportive accountability partner is also much skinnier than me and it's making me salty.
Submitted April 13, 2016 at 06:53AM by jealousloseit http://ift.tt/1RSJxJG loseit
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