I am a twenty-two year old female living in an abusive environment. My father died suddenly about a year ago, and I had to settle his affairs and pay for his funeral expenses by myself. Itook some time off of college because my grades plummeted due to severe depression after the loss of my father, I lost my full ride to a good college because of it.
I decided to rent a room from my older sister for 350$ (that includes all utilities.) My mother also rents a room from her. My older sister is very verbally abusive, she screams at me for using dishes, and for keeping literally one container of cottage cheese in the refrigerator. She constantly belittles me and punishes my mother if she ever tries to stand up for me. She tells me that I should kill myself constantly, and honestly I just want to walk out into the woods right now and do just that.
I am financially independent, but I have very meager funds. 1100 a month. My insurance payment for is 267$ a month. I have no vehicle presently because the one I bought broke down and the repairs will cost 6000, and I live in an area that with little to no public transportation.
I have no idea what to do. I have a life threatening health condition that causes me excruciating pain every day, and I am in the process of filing for disability. I am hoping that at some point I will become well enough to work or return to school, but for the forseeable future this simply isn't an option. I have no real family, and because of my depression I have distanced myself from friends. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I'm trying to sort my life out, but it's very difficult to do that when I am not sure I want to live anymore. Please give me some advice.
Submitted July 23, 2015 at 04:31AM by nietzsche_was_peachy http://ift.tt/1OndtJm Advice
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