I am scared of the most random things now. Spill milk? I hope I don't get hit. Drop the remote? Fuck I'm going to get yelled at. Seriously random shit that I have been programmed to be completely scared to do since I was a baby. I am an adult now, about to start college and I am still terrified to do a lot of things. Not just scared but seriously hateful to myself if I do these things. Call myself a worthless piece of shit for accidentally letting the refrigerator door close too hard. Feeling seriously horrible for doing the most simple of things that can be fixed very easily. I love my dad, and I am a worthwhile part of society now, but I am terrified of tiny confrontations with adults. Anyone else experience self hate or being terrified all the time?
Submitted July 04, 2015 at 11:19AM by 42cookies http://ift.tt/1LJCWxQ raisedbynarcissists
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