I have always had this lingering sense of paranoia that someone was always in my house watching me sleep or standing outside my door at night waiting. I hate walking past people when there aren't many people around because I feel like they are going to attack me. I dont look out windows at night because I feel like something is watching me from the shadows. I always feel like people are talking about me and frequently hear them say my name even though they are talking about something completely unrelated. I frequently hear someone opening my back door, looking through the refrigerator, or watching tv only to find out that no one is there. I can hardly leave my room at night because I feel like someone is on the other side of the door just waiting and listening. This has all gotten a lot worse in the past weeks and it feels like I'm going crazy. I get angry for no reason at all and don't want to have anything to do with school. My mom has been trying to schedule an appointment with a psychologist for a week or two now but it's taking too long and I feel like I'm going to have some sort of mental break. I don't know what to do anymore because I can't get to sleep at night and when I do I wake up in the middle of the night and can't get back to bed. I know feeling like someone is watching me and waiting outside my door is extremely irrational but I can't shake the feeling. I check that my door is locked about 4 times before I go to bed and if I have my back turned to something I constantly check behind me. If anyone can help me figure this out or give me some kind of advice to deal with this I would greatly appreciate it.
Submitted September 09, 2015 at 10:08AM by therealdealforl http://ift.tt/1Ma6Mxe schizophrenia
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