Okay, first off I struggle with some depression so there is that. If you saw the last episode to mad men, I am the guy with the refrigerator dream basically And,my social life kinda sucked and still has its own problems. I did not want to look at anybody, just be alone and it felt normal eventually. I have my own hobbies and things to do and would resort to them to not feel bad and, just that I had zero confidence to do much. I would just follow my own idea of being a considerate man that wants to have his own relm of life.
Along comes a new friend, we met and she wanted to get to know me, we were pretty similar without even knowing it. So, I was really shy and she was outgoing. She asked me to lunch with her within about a week after we meet up. She introduces me to her friends and gives me her number, calls me sweet once or twice, all this stuff that you could consider friendly or intimate. I start to feel great, somebody actually likes me for who I am and I dont have to feel like im creepy around a girl. We hung out a bit more and I would get to know her.
Well, why not use some form of social media to talk to others when you are far apart? I felt great just having no stress to socialize and she was really my only option other than 2 long time friends. It was moderate as I literally did not know what to do. Eventually, I just tried to be a bit more social on "social" media and it resulted in a problem. She got angry and wanted her space. Okay, I did not know,not using my failure to be out there as an excuse, but I felt like an ahole. First off, I will admit to growing feelings for her, and she seemed to act different around just me and I felt we liked each others company most of the time, dont know about the feelings part for her.
Currently she has blocked me on two forms so I can just show her that I need to moderate contact again and give space. I honestly saw everyone else around her being so outgoing and I thought im not doing enough. She still likes to talk to me and laughs a bit and is interested and I would support her in any way possible , just that she does not like me for what I did. I have been feeling bad for months about it as its hard to fix what you loved most. I posted in multiple forms on reddit about dating,depression,seduction,etc. It helped, but I could not put forth the effort.
So here I am better than when I started, but still okay, not great. I liked a person that cared about me and I cared about her. Things are tough
Submitted May 20, 2015 at 03:35AM by Brooklyn8828 http://ift.tt/1Fte8HO offmychest
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