So after gaining almost 50 pounds I finally did it. I ate so much last night that after going to bed at 7, I woke up violently ill and promptly threw up. It would take two more times before I felt better. I've been meaning to lose the weight and eat right, but I couldn't get my head in the right place. Last night was a revelation, I've gone back to old habits.
I hate throwing up, more than anything. It was pure torture. This was my wake up moment. I have never been this dedicated and motivated to eat right. I can't go on like this, I'm getting bigger, my clothes do not fit, I feel like a failure, and my health is getting worse.
I am going to print out a hunger chart and hang it on the refrigerator, and set it as my desktop. I was so happy at 180, but here I sit at over 220, probably closer to 230. I thought I had the knowledge and willpower to maintain, but obviously that was a lie. It took last night to snap me back to reality.
Has anyone had a moment like this? A moment where you said enough and changed your life for the better? I hate to change my flair that I was so proud of, I don't want to lose my 590 days streak on MFP as I have not been logging very well. I stepped away from this sub, ignored all diet articles and posts. I am getting back in it and I am going to forever change my life, once again.
This is not a NSV, this is me having a revelation. I want to know who else has dealt with this and what was your defining moment, your slap in the face that told you that you had to change. This sub helped me before, I am confident it will again.
Submitted August 09, 2016 at 07:48PM by HighOnAmbien http://ift.tt/2aJfoMJ loseit
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