The self portrait of a basement dweller, a reflection. TrueOffMyChest

I'll start by giving you a little insight into my life. Right now it's Sunday evening and I'm in my basement bedroom in front of two monitors and a laptop. The window is up by the ceiling and it's open a crack and I can hear the occasional person walk by on the sidewalk just outside. Some of the people that walk by are elderly couples out for an evening walk, some of them are groups of teenagers, some of them are a mom and dad team pulling their kids along in a toy wagon. I only get a brief momentary glimpse into their lives as they pass by my window, hardly long enough to hear the sound of passing laughter or a snippet of a sentence. They, of course, won't have a chance to notice me. I consider myself a bit of a ghoul lurking in the underbelly of human civilization that nobody should have the displeasure of acknowledging. I rot away in my bedroom in front of this computer every day, and yes, that's probably my fault. I turned 27 years old less than a week ago and I spent my birthday playing my bloodelf priest in world of warcraft. I'm a kissless virgin. I'm also handholdless and hugless. I have no friends. That's not a dramatic exaggeration. I literally have zero friends. In grade ten I quit highschool. I've never worked a day in my life. I have never filed a tax return. I have never driven a car. I can't cook. The most adult thing I've ever done was get on a bus all my myself and go to a doctor's appointment that I booked myself. I was 25. It was a horrible and terrifying experience. The world is scary. It frightens me. I only go outside once or twice a month and only very briefly, perhaps only for a few seconds, barely long enough to hold my hand up and look at it against the blue sky and realize how horribly my depersonalization has become. The happiest moments in my life are when my mother brings home McDonald's after work and leaves it in the refrigerator for me, a quarter ponder meal with no pickles and root beer. I take it to my room and eat it in front of my computer screens. I'm eating in front of my computer right now while playing runescape. I maxed in runescape six years ago. Thank you for reading.

Submitted May 09, 2016 at 05:51AM by OffMyChest39485 http://ift.tt/1UL2vnj TrueOffMyChest