So this is my only glitch from the past couple of years, and while it's a very small one, I really can't get my mind around how it happened.
A few weeks ago I came home from the gym, earbuds in my ears, and took them out and put them on the table. That night as I was getting ready for work, I couldn't seem to find them. No big deal and not weird; I'm pretty absentminded. I figure I'll find them the next day and grab my boyfriend's spare, identical pair. I repeat the same gesture after work - pull them out of my ears and put them on some tabletop.
The next day, yet again, I can't locate headphones. Now it's two pairs that I've lost so at this point I'm just frustrated with myself. This frustration kind of built up more and more throughout the day that, and by the time I got home that night, I was on warpath for these stupid earbuds. I came home to my boyfriend and I was absolutely bugging out - crying and shaking, having an anxiety attack about who knows what but it was manifesting itself in a desperate hunt for these lost earbuds. Both my boyfriend and I turned the apartment upside down. I searched the pockets of all my pants, sweatshirts, and coats. We searched every shelf and drawer. We went as far as to look in the refrigerator and even picked through the trash and recycling. Nothing. All my boyfriend kept saying was "these are going to turn up in a way that seems to defy reality, that's how it always goes," but I was feeling insane. I couldn't explain this feeling. It felt like someone or something was out to get me and was showing me by taking something relatively menial but that I use in my everyday life.
Anyway. Two weeks after this - this past Friday - I'm at work. I'd since bought yet another pair of headphones (again identical), and was keeping them in my work apron pocket. During my break, I take off my apron and put on my hoodie. I walk outside and put my hands in my sweatshirt pockets and there's a pair of earbuds. I couldn't believe it. I raced back inside and into the break room to make sure they weren't the pair I brought. I stuffed my hand in my apron pocket, and there were the new ones. The hoodie I was wearing that day is the one I wear to the gym almost daily. Those pockets were the first place I looked, and I looked in them pockets at least a dozen times, over many days. Of course I call my boyfriend in frantic confusion but also joy and all he says is "I told you they'd pop up inexplicably."
I know this glitch is so minor but I have truly never felt that frantic about missing something in my life. I'm generally unattached to my possessions - even expensive ones - and when they break or disappear I have a very "cest la vie" type of outlook. It feels weirdly meaningful that these items disappearing felt so important and I KNOW they were not in that pocket for the weeks prior to finding the headphones.
Submitted February 13, 2017 at 11:10PM by unchillest http://ift.tt/2lJ56kb Glitch_in_the_Matrix
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