My grandma raised me since I was born. My parents used to work very much to provide money for me and my sibling.
She died on the surgery table. She feared death and that surgery but doctors told her she has99% chances of survival. She trusted them. She died. She was then kept at the morgue in a refrigerator for about a week (if a patient died on the surgery table there are a lot of investigation going on ) and she was also claustrophobic during life. She hated hospitals. She never wanted this.
I was really close to her. She raised me because my parents were busy with work.
I had dreams of her often after she died but I just said it might be the shock. However my mom who deeply suffered (it was her mom) tried to even contact her in desperation and could never see grandma in her dreams.
Once I asked grandma in one of my dreams - they were vivid dreams. I was aware she died and I spoke to her. She seemed sad but resigned. I asked her why doesn't she show up in mom's dreams and she she said 'she (my mom) is too hurt' - meaning that seeing grandma often will just fuel her grief so she said she won't show herself in mom's dreams.
I kept having small dreams and they became rare and rare.
After 3 years, I had a bad accident. I went through hard times while I couldn't move and staying only in bed.
I was scheduled to a risky but necessary surgery but i didn't know the time. Only the day at that time.
A week before that surgery I dreamed grandma. She seemed to 'hide' from someone somehow. She told me to 'be quiet' because she is not supposed to be here anymore. I asked her how is she. She seemed sad again but in a hurry.
Before she left she told me to take better care of myself and also to tell my sister to stop neglecting herself.
I asked her : when will you come back? She didn't speak but she pointed to a clock that showed 9 o'clock. Then left.
I told the dream to my mom. She told me it might have been my pain that invented things. (She believes in dreams but refuses to 'dig' into this amymore because she gets too hurt)
In the day of the surgery I was supposed to enter at 7 am. They prepared me and made me an anesteshia. (Hope I weote it right$
When i woke up after the surgery, mom was crying. She was happy that it went out well and i am ok but she also told me something.
'Do you know when the surgery started? At 9 am because there have been some other energencies and the doctor got caught'
I started to cry and i instantly remembered my dream! SHE KNEW. GRANDMA KNEW Everything made sense. Grandma was there.
Also there were some complications at the end of my surgery. I had too low blood pressure and they couldn't wake me up - there were some kind of a 'coma state' but it lasted a few minutes only. mom told me that after i told her i dreamed of grandma again. It was short. We were in somehow a half light-half dark place. Like in the middle of nowhere. We were staying in the middle. I asked her how she's doing and stuffs. She again seemed in a hurry and wanted to leave. I went after her, worried if she is ok. She turned back and pushed me away telling me 'you shouldn't be here now'. I kept falling and falling. Then i woke up with nurses and doctors around me feeling like i can breathe again. - I got injected some adrenalin and stuff and I was quite agitated.
I truly believe these were real and I know grandma takes care of all of us. I'm crying writing this. Since then i onlydreamed of her once, after 4 years since her death. She was somehow very serious telling me she will come less and less and she has to 'move on'. I seemed to be understanding of that during my dream. She seemed to somehow lecture me that she won't be around often but she will be there in need. But I should take better care of myself and the family.
Since then, I couldn't dream of her amymore. I tried and I tried. I even tried to induce it by sleeping thinking of her every night. Nothing. Not a single dream after... This made me believe even more that what I dreamed of her before was 100% damn real
Submitted January 18, 2018 at 08:48PM by MalyaStark http://ift.tt/2mMVhTJ Dreams
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