I'm a FTM and about 8 weeks along. By husband and I have been together for a loooong time, over 6 years. We are both absolutely ecstatic about becoming parents and he has been so wonderful and supportive. Mostly. However, he said something to me this weekend that really hurt my feelings, and I'm trying not to be a Pregasaurus-Rex and be angry, but it made me really sad and really angry at the same time.
So far, I have had a pretty "boring" pregnancy. I haven't had much nausea and haven't been feeling excessively tired. I think my worse symptom so far has been the inability to control my hormones. But you guys, I'm really trying! I can feel myself getting snippy and irrational and really try to put a stop to it. On Sunday, I had spent a large part of the morning cleaning the house as we were having people over that afternoon for the a Super Bowl party. I had the house mostly cleaned and my husband was helping me clean out the refrigerator as our final step. Somehow, a glass of juice that had been in the fridge ended up on the counter and when I turned around, I knocked over the glass of juice which then spilled all over our counter-top, coffee maker, and UNDER the stupid fridge. I yelled "Ugh! Why is this glass here?" and my husband laughed at me and said "What?! Did you forget you put it there?!" and picked up a couple towels to start helping me clean it up. For some reason, his response, coupled with the fact that he was laughing at me activiated my pregnancy-rage switch. I proceeded to throw the towels at him and told him to get out of the kitchen and leave me alone. He then said "Holy shit, calm down, I was just joking" but when he realized how mad I was, he got frustrated and went into the bedroom. I pulled out the fridge from the wall (Go, Go Gadget Hulk Strength) and got the mess cleaned up. Then I started to cry because I was too bloated to fit behind the fridge. He came back into the kitchen when he heard me crying, gave me a hug, and I apologized for yelling at him. A little while later, after we'd both calmed down, I apologized again and told him I really didn't mean to get so snippy at him. He then said the most heartbreaking and upsetting thing that I've heard in a while: "It's okay... I mean I get it. I know you're pregnant and hormonal, it's just getting hard because I feel like I have to walk on egg shells around you lately and I'm getting really sick of it"
Wait, what?!
I hate that my own husband feels uncomfortable around me, but together with making me sad, his statement really pissed me off. Everyone, pregnant or not, gets crabby sometimes. Even he gets the occasional irrational mood swing.
I don't really know where to go from here. We've mostly moved past it, but it's still really bugging me. He's probably already forgotten he even said it, but it made me feel like a monster. How do I remind him that I'm still a person, not just a raging and hormonal baby making machine? I hate that every time I'm sad or angry or hurt in the coming months, he's just going to blame it on my pregnancy hormones and discount what I'm feeling. URGH. I just want to feel in control of my emotions again!
Submitted February 04, 2015 at 01:50AM by WISCOMama http://ift.tt/1uUUI6i BabyBumps
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