at first i thought she and i were going to be friends, not best friends, but friends. i usually get along with people pretty easily and generally don’t really get upset with people unless they REALLY push my buttons. and she has figured out how to do exactly that. first of all, her mindset about the cleanliness of our room is “if i ignore that then my roommate will clean it up.” she leaves pieces of food, wrappers, used tissues, and empty bottles all over the room with no intention of picking them up and throwing them in the trash can which is approximately one foot from her desk. she leaves clothes and shoes thrown in the middle of room and doorways. she unsympathetically makes comments like “yeah you clean the whole room and i do nothing hahah.” it’s assumed that it’s my responsibility to restock toilet paper/paper towels etc. and god fucking forbid she puts a roll of toilet paper on the toilet paper holder. she spills her milk inside of MY refrigerator and makes remarks to me about how annoyed she is with the milk spilling, and then proceeds to leave it there until i clean it up. so basically she treats me like the fucking maid and i don’t get paid shit so i hate that. she expects me to drop everything and pay full attention to her 45-minute long ridiculously pathetic stories about how some dude didn’t respond to her snapchat IMMEDIATELY and now she’s spun that into something of actual meaning and it’s the end of the motherfucking world, and all i want to do is tell her that she over analyzes everything and puts meaning into benign things. and when some dude says “hey i haven’t seen you in a while, what have you been up to” upon bumping into her in the hall, it is in fact him just being polite and is not him trying to jump your bones, especially because he already has an almost official girlfriend who is (no offense) exponentially prettier than said roommate. and i have to be entirely supportive of everything she likes whether that be boys or decisions or whatever, but anytime i’m telling her about something i’m excited about she either almost entirely ignores me or scoffs and makes a snide comment that shuts me down. she’s also easily the most negative person i’ve ever met in my life, always complaining about her “terrible upbringing” even though after getting the full scope of her upbringing it turns out to be very average and again, she has this illusion in her mind that it’s some hugely traumatic and unique thing. (basically she’s a middle child and feels like her parents didn’t pay enough attention to her and her brother sometimes has anger issues). she always expects things to be awful, with just one example being every time she goes somewhere i say “have fun, see ya later!” and her response every time is “i won’t.” i generally consider myself a “glass half full” person and she puts such a damper on my mood everyday that i feel like i’m starting to get depressed. it feels constantly like she’s expecting/looking for reasons for me to upset her or disappoint her or piss her off or “steal her thunder.” but what she doesn’t realize is she responds to people in a way that’s defensive and belittling and it makes people feel uncomfortable or negatively towards her, so her whole life is one big fucking self-fulfilling prophecy of negativity and disappointment. she’s one of the least considerate people i’ve ever met, early in the morning before i get up (8:15am) she turns on all the lights in the room, opens drawers/doors and slams them shut (not intentionally to be loud, but as if she were getting ready in the room entirely alone and not as if somebody is sleeping 6 feet away from all of this commotion). basically she’s my own personal roommate from hell that has somehow figured out how to push all of my buttons simultaneously and it’s only been 2 of 7 months of living together. i’ve tried to have polite conversations with her about these things on multiple occasions but she immediately gets defensive and blames me/makes me feel at fault and will hold a grudge until i apologize for something that’s not my fault just to alleviate the extreme uncomfortable tension it creates. i hope to fucking god she drops out so i never have to see her miserable face again.
Submitted November 14, 2017 at 02:59PM by farstrout http://ift.tt/2hs9KlQ confession
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