I think this is okay for both sexes? Things have been spiraling out of control since my BF cheated. OCD behavior has gotten worse and now I think its expanded to sex addiction. I am diagnosed and have a history and even an arrest related. I think I've gotten much more aggressive about my particular form of acting out. I have lots of small behaviors, organizational things I do, I have issues with things being left plugged in (refrigerators, washer dryers, and stoves, and dishwashers are maddening!!!). Usually I keep my behavior at home, its expanded to work and school. I have issues with knobs and making sure they are closed and checking and rechecking, but that isn't too much of an issue. I might need to return to meds, but have been praying I wouldn't.
Now I have to quit my job, some social problems are piling up at work, and BF finally found out about some of my extra relationship sexual activity. It's only been giving handjobs, several a day usually with lots of people. His friends, coworkers, people from class, and strangers. I started going around prepared to do it anytime and the sense of chase and calm was a high and really made other problems go away. I've done my boss several times, but last time he started pulling on my head real aggressively. Hurt my neck. While I do like all kinds of sex, the handjobs were my limits I'd placed. So the boss is acting like an ahole now. Some girls at school are being horrible and even some of the boys have gotten out of control with thing they say publicly.
My BF finally found out what I was doing, but we're still not broken up, but he's fighting with several of his friends who won't have anything to do with me now. He's horrible to me but doesn't want me to leave. And yet I can't stop with the handjobs, even later I've got someone set up. I think my OCD now is including sex addiction, since the feelings are the same. But I know its not like what I read about with other people either, so maybe its not as bad as I think or its just like a habit or revenge cheating or just normal. I don't know if I'm asking for advice or just putting it out there. I feel like I need a plan, but not meds, just a plan.
Submitted March 25, 2015 at 11:47PM by worthlessmoi http://ift.tt/1EUgFJ1 NoFap
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