[No Regrets]: If you don't feel bad
I have been keeping this a secret for a while, but I feel like I need to tell someone about it, so here it goes:
I am a 23-year-old guy, and I'm gay. For most of my life, I have been a really thin and weak guy, but kinda tall too, at 6'2", so I was always lanky. Ever since I was a teenager, I have been attracted to guys who are large, especially offensive lineman types--guys who are built like refrigerators: huge and strong, but in many cases also a bit fat. I have always felt like I ultimately wanted to be with a guy like that, if I could ever find one.
At some point by the end of college, however, I started having the feeling that maybe I should try to change my body into that type, instead of just looking for someone with a certain body. So, I took up powerlifting--to get bigger and stronger, sure, as I would tell people, but more specifically to become linemanesque, or as I ended up finding, bearlike. (For those who don't know, a bear in the gay community is a large hairy guy; there are a lot of subtypes.) I always had the body hair for it, but I had to get bigger, so I got to work.
After about two years of powerlifting, I am about 40 pounds heavier than I was when I started, and I am happy with the way things have gone. I am bigger and stronger, definitely. I am more muscular, and I have also become chubby. The total effect is that I feel quite a bit better about myself, and I feel much more masculine. I plan to keep powerlifting, and in the future, I hope to get much bigger. I feel better that way.
Wow, this was so weird to say, but it feels good. Comments are welcome, if you want to say anything.
Submitted November 06, 2014 at 07:59PM by wannabemusclecub http://ift.tt/1z2fcNo confession
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