I know it's not technically winter but the icicles forming on my vagina say otherwise.
I got out the kids winter stuff last week since I knew it couldn't be more than a month, tops, before this kind of weather settled in. Well, we went from mid 50s to low 20s in the course of a week. And big surprise: the 4 year old's boots are too small. The 6 year old's coat and boots are too small, and can't even be handed down to the 4 year old because they're so worn out. This is extremely nerve-wracking because that's kind of a lot of money for us to drop at once right now but obviously it needs to happen. So, I ran it by husband and he blew me off. "We don't need to worry about that yet, they have time!"
WROOONG. Literally a week to the day, I got up yesterday morning and it was 17 fucking degrees. I had to send my daughter to school in her sneakers and two hoodies. It's the best I could do. Her coat is so small at this point that the sleeves are halfway up her forearms and there's a huge tear in the side, which I have no recollection of. I already felt like the worst mother to ever live, and then guess what she comes home with? A fucking flyer from her teacher with a 'friendly reminder' that students need to be dressed appropriately for winter weather. I went in the bathroom and cried. I'm now that mom, the one who needs to be told to dress her kid warmly. Only I don't, I don't have a choice because we're fucking shitty parents. After that, I loaded the kids into the car and we went and got new coats and boots and gloves too because they'll need those soon enough. Ended up spending $180 at Walmart for this. And I'm sure you guys will get it, I'm not complaining because I had to spend money on my kids. It's just...goddammit. Between this, loaning my sister $350, and the refrigerator randomly croaking a few weeks ago, we're this close to dipping into our anniversary trip savings fund. Which isn't really the point, it's just depressing and I'm tired of just trying to make ends meet.
My husband came home this morning and I filled him in. I talked to him some on the phone yesterday but I didn't want to unload the whole story on him while he was at work. So this morning I tell him what happened. He leaves for work before our daughter leaves for school and he said he thought about how cold it was the whole day. I can tell he feels as shitty as I do and he apologized for blowing me off in the first place. Our "trip fund" is $300. That's taken us since February to save. We've got enough to buy groceries before using that and honestly I can live with it but I doubt that's gonna cover everything. He's gonna see if he can pick up any construction gigs but with the weather the way it is there's no guarantee. So right now, we're back to picking and choosing which bills to pay.
I'm just so disappointed and overwhelmed and feel like worst mother and wife ever. It's not really my husband's fault but I'm just annoyed with him even though he apologized.
Submitted November 10, 2017 at 10:40PM by mommafromthemidwest http://ift.tt/2hpKnol breakingmom
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