I really don't know how to say it in a way that's not...
Ok random strangers, I'm going to lay it all on the table. And I have no idea what to expect of this, I'm more just venting I think. But we'll see.
I'm a 31 male living in the Culver City area, who's been single way too long (coming on 2.5 years actually). Most of this time was deliberate, I had a terrible breakup to someone I was about to propose to and it absolutely wrecked me. It was only about a year ago that I started going out again, but I haven't really connected with someone since.
During this time I buried myself in work; which has worked out very well for me but at the expense of my friends/social life. I'm an east coast transplant (almost ten years now), as were many of my friends when I first moved out to California. As the years have gone on, many of my closest friends have moved back home and some people I've grown apart from. Some also had objected to my previous relationship (long story); I let those friendships dissolve; and then when I tried to reconnect after the breakup, they weren't interested.
As my friends dwindled, I kept burying myself in work, getting promotions/raises in addition to a lot more hours and responsibilities. As I write this, I work about 50-60 a week.
All of this has left me in the following predicament... I don't have any friends anymore.
Seriously, I now struggle to find someone to hang out with, or talk with or... even confess with. It really sucks to lose the one you care most, lose all the friends you had, while at the same time everything is finally starting to come together the way you always hoped it would. It's just hilariously late and you're now alone.
Ok, enough of my sadness.
- I have brown hair (or as I call it, Chestnut)
- I have green eyes (or as I call it, Emerald)
- I'm 6'1 (or as I call it, 6'2)
- I'm white (or as I call it, Caucasian)
- I'm chubby (been compared to Seth Rogen), but I'm trying to lose it. Last couple years parked in front of a computer haven't helped me, but I will overcome...
I have a pretty nice 1-bedroom apartment; that I feel is both 'manly' decorated, if slightly dorky (the kitchen comes complete with an empty refrigerator, clean/dusty cooking instruments and a bunch of menus!). My living room I think is really nicely decorated actually, I like being able to show it off.
Things are going well for me professionally, I just got a promotion and raise, and am due for another bump/bonus coming up. I'm about to be a 'boss' for the first, time too but... I'm totally not content with work; feel I took the safe if 'respectable' track rather than what I wanted to do with my life. I'm planning to move on when we get our bonuses, maybe even take a couple of months off. I feel like the last 2.5 years has been one gigantic event and I want to move on in the worst way.
I'm terribly close with my father and my niece, often talking to both on the phone a couple times a week (for 20-60 minutes a pop). My niece is hilariously adorable and has become a Doctor Who superfan out of nowhere. I love it so so much.
I really have no idea what else to say, other than I want to meet someone who I can be friends with first. I really miss being able to have that conversation, you have no idea how much.
Lets see if this gets any replies now, its pretty much been stream of consciousness. Bless anyone who read the whole thing.
Submitted April 15, 2015 at 10:05AM by Aprilthe14th http://ift.tt/1CYYZIA r4r
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