I told my severely depressed brother to kill himself. He makes me hate him so much. I can't do this anymore Advice

My brother has been depressed most of his life, right now he's 16 and I'm 19 he hasn't even left the house in months. Right now it's my mom, brother, and him. I've tried to understand depression, but it just doesn't make sense to me. I mean I understand he can't help it, but it makes me hate him so much. He can't even do the most basic shit. He will leave the door to the refrigerator open, he will go grocery shopping with my mom, buy no food he likes, and then eat all of the food that I bought before I barely get a chance to eat it. He doesn't give a fuck about anything I personally care about, but he expects everyone else to listen to his nonsensical whinings day in and day out. It's making me hate him. I don't think there's anything I can do to make him and less depressed. He drags me down to his pathetic level every single day. It's impossible to be nice to him anymore. Today I snapped. I was trying to build a resume and get a job, but he turned off the Internet (the router is in the room) and refused to turn it back on making me unable to get a job. I tried to be nice, I threatened him, but finally after arguing all day I couldn't take it anymore so I punched him in the face, and told him to kill himself. The worst part? I really think my life would be easier if he did. I don't want to lose my brother of course, but I feel I already have and that there's nothing I can do. What the Fuck do I do? I'm seeking a therapist, but I need some short term advice.

Submitted March 10, 2015 at 04:31AM by HipsterFeline http://ift.tt/1BkB6yz Advice