So yeah the school year was rough. Although i missed some assignments and junior year was filled with some stuff i still managed to put a on smile. But deep down i was disappointed in myself. Almost everyday my mom would shout at me about an assignment and when i tried to catch up another one was right there. And it went on and on. Personally i feel like I'm owe her. She brought me into this world and i feel like i have to show her that it was worth it. So i would just nod my head and start working on whatever she told me. I felt like i owed her that much as her only child. I've listened to that all through my highschool year.
So today was the first day of finals. No big deal and she brought me taco bell. I had to sit in the living room with her as we were movong things around so our downstairs could be painted this weekend. I was eating and she starts yelling at me again. I say "Can you please not do this while I'm eating?". But she keeps going on, saying that if i get a C she's going to be ticked. . So I get up and go to my room setting everything down and getting out my work. She follows me and starts going off at me about my assignments. I say ok and begin working but she won't stop. So i tell her i don't want the food (i kinda felt ashamed eating while i should be working) and place it away. She threatens me saying that I'm gonna eat it by tonight or else. So i go past her and place it in the refrigerator. I try to pass her but she doesn't so i say "move". I get back to my seat and she goes of at me saying i was "disrespectful and i should know better". That i should learn my place or else. I tell her I'm trying to work but she just won't stop. She keeps rubbing those assignments i missed and i think back to how high i had raised my grades. I start feeling pathetic like I'd disappointed her (something i never wanted to do). In a rage i fired back, releasing every ounce of pent up rage i had, even stuff that didn't involve her. We shout it out and she threatens to call the police on me (even though I'm sitting down ). It feels like I'm not in control anymore so when she started cursing i fired back with my own words. I start tearing up from the situation from everything I'd been through and finally call me grandmother, asking her to get my mom to stop. Well yeah she does that and my mom goes and plays family feud on her map while i sit in my room. Working and shedding tears silently.
Well Reddit not the exact first real post I'd hoped to have but i felt like i had to say this somewhere.
Submitted December 18, 2014 at 05:43AM by SAYMYNAMEYO http://ift.tt/1x0ABcH tifu
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