The most frustrating thing right now is my living situation. I live with my parents in a trailer. I am 18 and a college student, yet because I only have a minimum wage job, I can't afford an apartment until about April. Currently, our water heater has stopped working, we have no refrigerator, and our oven has broken. The water heater has not been working for MONTHS. I have had to heat water up on the stove to have what could be considered a homeless person bath. Obviously that is the one of the main reasons my depression is so bad right now, but it's not the only thing. Back to the housing situation: My mother is insanely irresponsible, annoying, and just flat out stupid. Her and my father are no longer um, dating? So she lives in the room next to mine, which means we share a bathroom. She has DESTROYED it. She has also messied up our kitchen, with coffee stains and paint everywhere. I also came home a couple weeks ago to find an empty pan on full power on the stove, with the handle melted off as well as the toaster next to it being melted. She hadn't been home for hours.....
Anyways, besides that.... I'm very lonely. I have very few friends. I hook up a lot but I don't really have any one who I constantly talk to. I have a date tomorrow, but this guy almost always cancels plans with me, so I wouldn't be surprised if it didn't happen.
I don't know how my grades are right now, but I have lost a lot of motivation so I can't imagine they are as good as I'd like them to be.
I have coping skills, such as reading and writing, playing on my computer, or whatever but honestly, those things can't really help distract me from the fact that my life is pure shit right now. I have a therapist, and she said she may be able to find someone to help with the water heater, but didn't really tell me any way I could handle this..
Submitted November 19, 2014 at 09:43AM by jerry-springer http://ift.tt/1yRaOQG depression
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