Hello, I'm not exactly sure how to begin. I am a 23 year old male college student living alone with my mother. My mother has a good amount of unresolved childhood issues. She is at times extremely infantile and is prone to behaving like a child. She claims to be seeing a therapist for her issues including the "sleepwalking". Every night, she slowly descends into a state where she becomes at times unresponsive and aggressive. It's not uncommon to see her stumbling around the house, eating food out of the refrigerator indiscriminately, and generally behaving in an odd manner. When I try to ask her to go to bed, she reacts negatively, and often will bring up my shortcomings. When bad things happen in her life (or even moderately disappointing, she reacts poorly to disappointment) this state is more likely to occur and more likely to be worse. Without going into detail, she has done things in this state that are burned into my memory. While extremely uncommon, there are times where she is in physical danger while in this state. I have come home to an open flame on the oven while she is passed out on the floor. I have had to bring her to the emergency room to remove glass from her leg. I have become a paranoid insomniac because of her behavior. The first time I noticed this was in my early teenage years. Every time I try to confront her about it, it is never a good time, or she flat out says she isn't going to discuss it, and I get the feeling she believes I am exaggerating. No one knows about this except for me and her doctors. This is the first time I am breaking my promise to not tell anyone, but I figured the anonymity makes it a half broken promise. Our doctor prescribed her different medications to see what would help. She takes xanax when she is feeling nervous or scared. The doctor also prescribed ambien to see if that would make her stay in bed but it ended up aggravating her condition. At one point, I found her going through her medications while in the "state." I tried to take them away and she bit me. She also occasionally mixes her water with vodka, which I have called her out on multiple times. We have parakeets now (not my idea) and I stay up to make sure she doesn't bother them (she does). Tonight, she lost one of the parakeets while sleepwalking. I woke her up and we searched and I found it. She then accused me of hiding the parakeet (She usually doesn't remember anything she does in the "state" except for bits and pieces, this varies depending on how bad the sleepwalking is. Sometimes she misremembers sleepwalking behavior as normal behavior.) For years I have tried and worked with her and been supportive. When things didn't change, I started to get angry and yell. I am not proud to admit I sometimes yell at her while she is sleepwalking but I have no other outlet to vent my frustration knowing she'll deny everything in just a few hours. I should also note that I am a dependent. During the semester I am a full time student, and I work part time when I can. I have 3 more semesters, but I don't think I could morally walk out once I became completely independent. I am not the most together and independent person and part of it has to do with being brought up by just my mother who is not at all together. I can't live like this anymore. I have no idea what to do. I am leaving out a lot, but I will try to answer questions which should hopefully make the situation a little more clear. Sorry if it came out as rambling.
Submitted January 13, 2016 at 12:30PM by newuserforprivacy http://ift.tt/1mWXomC Advice
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