I think about killing myself everyday. I shouldn't have these thoughts; I have a lot of friends, a beautiful girlfriend, and I'm headed towards a lucrative career. I just can't shake this fucking feeling of insignificance. I know a lot of people feel this way, and I recognize that it would be selfish of me to ever act on my thoughts, but they are slowly turning into actions. I've been testing different areas to hang myself from to make sure they hold my weight, I rock my refrigerator until it's close to falling on me, I'm searching for an escape. I'm scared because I'm not afraid to off myself, the only thing that's holding me back are the people who care about me.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to achieve by typing this out, I just need to see my thoughts.
Submitted July 17, 2015 at 10:52AM by ThyRealest http://ift.tt/1MxuX5f depression
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