[support] nmil. don't know if you can help me. raisedbynarcissists

hi. so i don't know if you guys can help me, but something just happened and i don't know what to do.

i recently moved from my home province across the country, to be closer to my boyfriend's family. i knew they weren't great beforehand, but i didn't understand quite the extent. lately, his mom has been sorta nice to us, inviting us over for dinner and stuff. this month, things have been a little hard. i'm currently suffering from depression and i haven't been working in a few months. my boyfriend just started his job and hasn't been paid yet, so we're struggling to get food and everything. i'm supposed to be having an appointment with a psychologist next week.

anyways, his mom will sometimes help us out, sometimes not, sometimes she'll yell at us for daring to ask. my boyfriend earlier today said that he'd ask her to give him a ride to the food bank. he told me "she doesn't think she'll be able to help." it's pretty chilly and boring in our basement, so i went to bed.

i woke up to some noise, she came over with a bunch of bags of groceries, and she was arguing with bf that she shouldn't have to do this stuff, we're adults, and we're taking this stuff out of her family's mouths. he said to just take them back then. and then she demanded to see me, told me that i haven't worked in months and that sitting around all day isn't helping. i told her i know this. but she just kept arguing. i told her i am getting help, i have an appointment soon, and that it has nothing to do with her, so i didn't tell her about it. she said it's obviously getting worse! the wait is too long! you need to do something! i tried to keep as calm as i could, and i asked her to please leave, or i would call the police. she said, call the police! i'll stand here and tell them that you need help, and that's what i'm doing! she told me that she won't let me drag her son down with me. i have a big problem with being told things like that. it hurt me immensely. i'm not proud of it, but i told her, if you want me to kill myself, i will, and i hit my head on the refrigerator door. she restrained me and kept yelling.

boyfriend tried to calm her down, and eventually she let me stay in another room. she just kept saying that she wants to help, she wants to help, but she's just yelling and hurting everyone's feelings in the process.

and she probably sees me as a whackjob now too. i don't know how to feel. sorry if this isn't right for this subreddit.

Submitted April 09, 2015 at 08:10AM by candywax http://ift.tt/1Obw8Zz raisedbynarcissists