It's not Tuesday,but I'm having a tantrum loseit

I was steadily losing weight and getting closer to my goal for this challenge and I became pregnant (not a problem we were trying). So I'm eating about 300-400 (yesterday,500) calories over my limit (about 1590) I look in the mirror and constantly think "I'm only about two months pregnant but it looks like I'm six or seven months along...."

On top of that my toddler is going through a growth spurt and when I make food for her,the cravings kick in... So I've gained about three pounds back apparently and I have to wait until the end of the month to ask an OB if it's even okay for me to lose weight still. I feel like it should be okay because I'm back to 249 now instead of 246. And what doctor would say "nope,don't lose any weight,you need to gain weight" to a pregnant lady who is 249lbs and eating some sort of fast food once a day,4 out of 7 days of the week. I'm ashamed. But I was eating the same way when I was losing weight so I'm lost.

So I guess I'm maintaining for now...at least that's what I thought until I saw the scale today.

But when I was pregnant with my first,I couldn't even gain weight. I was throwing up too much when I hit three months. I lost weight. Then after she was born,I was 180. The lowest I've been in years. Then I went through the stress and abuse of my ex and gained just a tiny bit like 5 pounds. Then I met my fiance and over the course of about a year,I was 256. Because I wouldn't say no to eating fast food with him. This whole time he has stayed 180-187. I'm super jealous of that.

So I don't know what to do except rant. Is there some type healthy pregnant lady "diet"? Something to stop the cravings? Any way to make healthy food and decent cooking taste great? I know meal prep would be the best but there's cravings and the fact that until the end of the year,we live with family so the refrigerator is pretty full and I wouldn't know what to prep even though I see what people prep.

I started my weight loss journey in June of this year...it sucks that all I've lost are ten pounds..well seven pounds now. I keep going over my calorie limit and I can't seem to deny a food offer unless I'm bloated. But other than yesterday,i do try to keep everything under 1600. it's like I got to the 240s and everything stopped.

Edit:I don't think anyone would like my humor so I toned it down and made it as serious as I feel.

Submitted September 18, 2016 at 06:56PM by nightmarethewolfie http://ift.tt/2cg2dSe loseit