I'm doing physical damage and still just keep on plowing through telling myself 'just one more time.' This is like a heroin or cocaine addiction. NoFap

I swear I have done nerve damage or given myself a stricture in my urethra from over-masturbation/extended 'sessions,' yet I still do it. Every. single. time. I stand up or sit down I get this discomfort in my penis. I go into chatrooms and chat for HOURS before orgasm and chat about some of the most disgusting things. What a worthless piece of scum I am. I can't believe I do not have the willpower to stop. I deserve this physical pain. I brought it all on myself. I wish I could just get a prostatectomy and orchidectomy to remove my prostate and testicles. I have never wanted kids. These are just pointless potentially cancerous pieces of garbage in my body that do nothing but drive my mind insane. Totally useless. Or I wish I could contact my ISP and have them block certain websites because even if I configure my hosts file, I'm a web guy, I will go back in and remove the blocks. My longest stint with no masturbation was 10 days and that was last year after having been addicted for about 22. I am kneeling as I type this as I can't even sit in a chair right now my penis is so sore. The thing with cocaine and heroin and alcohol is that they are not perfectly legal and sitting right next to your refrigerator every time you go to eat something. Porn is 1 single click away from doing ANYTHING AT ALL on your computer. Sorry just venting. I HAVE to stop this because I have done permanent physical damage to my penis. That's so embarrassing to even admit.

Submitted February 27, 2015 at 04:40PM by IUsedToHaveAmbition http://ift.tt/1EwJBry NoFap